Here's the Deal.

So, why am I doing this?

Originally, I had a statement here about how I was sharing stuff that I had collected over time and about how people with EDs would find them interesting. I tried to justify this by telling myself that if you don't find these triggers here, you'll find them somewhere else. I tried telling myself that because you will not find "tips" to hurt yourself on this site (as opposed to many ED sites out there), it's better you come here than go to the other sites.

Now I'm going to be honest. I'm not thinking about others. Sorry. I'm thinking about myself. This is my outlet. Right now, I have no one in my life with whom I can share these issues. I need a way to channel these emotions into something that is not self-injuring (physically). I need a way to work this out. I need to see that I'm going to post the same fifty women again and again, because there are only fifty women in the world who have the body I want. I need to find flaws in these images, so I can convince myself that no matter how thin I get, my problems aren't going away.

I don't care if anyone else sees this site. If I could make this blog completely private, or better yet, keep it on the hard drive of my computer, I would do it. It's for me. If you want to come along with me, fine. Otherwise, leave.

P.S. Yes, I am starting counseling soon.